As of 22nd February 2010...

Argh, these last two weeks have been... eventful to say the least.

Firstly, my Grandma was admitted into hospital on the 11th February and was then diagnosed with terminal cancer on Monday the 15th February. My Family are totally crushed, and shocked because it all seems so sudden. 

Secondly, I had been saving up since mid December 2009 and finally purchased my brand new television. It's full 1080p HD, 22", LG and beautiful. I can actually read the words on the screen instead of having to squint up at a 12" tv, but unfortunately, haven't really been at home or in the mood enough to enjoy it!

And Finally, I've spent the majority of my time in and out of hospital visiting my Grandma, and that's about it, I feel like i've been in a very long daydream over the last 2 weeks... I don't really remember much of it at all apart from the bad things... I think it's the shock of the news and the upset to be honest... I feel like i'm just co-existing....

I was really nervous on Friday, which is going to sound strange, considering the reason I felt nervous was because I was going to a Party... It was a joint 18th Birthday Party, for my two good friends Cameron and Daniel. It was at the New Inn, in Oadby and to be honest, despite a few setbacks, it was a good night.

I was nervous because it's the first time in two weeks, since hearing the news about my Grandma, that i'd been around more than 5 people at a time that weren't Family... I was scared that I was going to burst into tears if anyone asked me about it, or what i'd been up to recently. In the end it wasn't too bad, I was ok when I was there, if not a little drawn back and quiet sometimes...

It was all good at first, until the creepy barman threw us all out because some people were underage and drinking... and some of the "of age" people were buying drinks for them. After being kicked out we all walked around trying to find somewhere to go... some people went to the Fox and got kicked out for having no ID, some people went to the Black Dog and some people went to get food at Pizza Mondo. Most of us went along for something to eat, whilst Scott and I and other friends waited outside, we heard shouting from inside and witnessed a very close call of a fight happening, which shocked us all to be honest.

Luckily no-one was hurt, but it was quite scary at the time...

Not sure of the full story, but what I do know all sounds a bit silly.

After that we waited around for a while then Scott, Tara, Kurt and I went to Wetherspoons and met up with Cam, Amy, Akash, Josh, Sam, Andy, Tom and a few other people. We all went back to Tom's after that, had some drinks and food, watched Old School and Layer Cake then went to bed.

It was lovely falling asleep in Scott's arms for a change, and waking up laying next to him with his arms around me. I felt safe and happy, I didn't feel so scared and crushed, which felt like a big thing for me.

On Saturday morning, Scott and I walked from Wigston to Oadby at 9:30am, went to ASDA, bought some Croissants, Crepes and Orange and Mango Juice and had a nice breakfast back at his house, I got picked up by Dad at half eleven, went to the bank for a meeting, picked my Auntie Sandra up and we all went to the hospital to visit Grandma... she seemed good, a bit more colour in her cheeks, happier, smiling... she just wants to come home. Which hopefully, she'll be able to do next Monday (22nd) :)

It's my Mum's birthday on Tuesday 23rd, which I'm SO excited for. I've spoiled her rotten! Can't wait to see her reaction to the gifts i've bought her and the cakes i'm going to bake :)
We're going to have a buffet tea with birthday cake and pavlova. I can't wait!

I know this has been a bit long, but I guess sometimes writing about things is easier than speaking about them... sometimes I just don't know how to voice what I feel... 

Write Soon :) x